# i washed my hamds until they bled

Category: Health and Wellness

## Post 1 by laced-unlaced (Account disabled) on Thursday, 09-Feb-2012 13:10:29

Under control: Debbie Thomson did not realise she had OCD until she was 16, and the condition spiralled out of control after her daughter was born
A mother whose obsessive compulsive disorder got so bad she considered committing suicide has now managed to get the condition under control, and helps others to do the same.
Debbie Thomson, who has suffered from OCD since she was a child, revealed how she used to think her family would die if she touched a door handle.
She also washed her hands until they bled, and would fumigate her house every time a visitor dropped in.
After the birth of her daughter, Mina, Debbie's OCD spiralled out of control. The restrictions of her compulsive habits led the new mother to think she was a bad parent and she plunged into depression - even considering suicide.
Debbie said: 'She (Mina) would touch everything. I couldn’t control her, when she was about six months old, the depression kicked in and I hit rock bottom.
'I rang my husband and said, "I can’t do this anymore", I even asked to be sectioned. I felt I was inflicting my disorder on other people.'
The young mother, who has been on antidepressants three times, immediately started having psychotherapy.
But it was her own will power which really bought Debbie back from the brink. She was determined not to leave her daughter with out a mother.
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The 31-year-old from Hull, who works as a part-time NHS health trainer, now has her condition under control - but admits she still has the occasional relapse.
She said: 'It’s a very secretive illness, but people don’t need to suffer in silence. OCD is still a bit taboo. People don’t understand it.
'I was a child when I started to notice I was different. I had a fear of fire and thought my house was going to burn down.
'I’d carry out rituals and couldn’t touch door handles because I thought somebody in my family was going to die.
When she was a child, Debbie (pictured with her daughter Mina, eight)thought that if she touched a doorknob, her family would die
OCD - A VERY COMMON MENTAL HEALTH PROBLEM
Obsessive compulsive disorder (OCD) is a chronic, long-term mental health condition that is usually associated with obsessive thoughts and compulsive behaviour.
It is one of the most common mental health conditions.
An estimated 3 in 100 adults and up to 5 in 100 children and teenagers have OCD.
The cause of OCD is unknown, but there is evidence to suggest it may be genetic. It has also been known to develop following a streptococcal infection, or a life-changing event for example a bereavement.
Famous OCD sufferers include:
Cameron Diaz: Like Debbie, the actress is OCD when it comes to doorknobs, and obsessively cleans them to the point that paint is peeling off of the ones in her house.
David Beckham: He's obsessed with order and is always putting things into pairs, in hotels, his wardrobe and the fridge.
Katy Perry: The singer has admitted to having OCD tendencies when she's over-stressed.
Sources: NHS.uk and nursingschools.net
'Sometimes I would wash my face excessively and I would have really dry skin.
'People didn’t know how to react. My behaviour was often very bizarre. I always felt isolated.'
Debbie was diagnosed with the illness when she was 16 after her boyfriend at the time gave her a leaflet about OCD. She said she didn’t know how to react at first and wasn’t fully aware of the condition.
'Now I’m grateful for what he did because it was the first time I’d been pushed to get help,' she said.
'It was then that I was diagnosed with the disorder and started seeing a psychiatric nurse. It did help, but I think I was still in denial.
'She would talk to me about the disorder and I’d try to understand why I had certain obsessions. They were predominately about cleaning, dirt contamination and checking everything.
'I would move a chair loads of times until I felt it was in the right place.
'I thought I had control over whether people lived or died and it wasn’t rational, but at the time I couldn’t see beyond that.'
Although she says will never fully recover from her disorder, the future now looks bright for Debbie.
She has visited a service group in Hull which offers psychotherapy, and last summer set up a support group so that fellow sufferers can share their fears.
Debbie is also now in her second year at the University of Hull, studying a degree in psychology which further helps her understand the disorder.
Debbie said: 'People think if you have OCD you can’t live a normal life.
'My parents didn’t understand, it was alien to them. My mum passed away last March and it spurred me on to start a group.
Debbie says: 'People think if you have OCD you can¿t live a normal life.' She is trying to break that taboo
'My dad now knows more about my condition and is really proud of what I’m doing.
'Sometimes I will still go into a cleaning frenzy and I will move things lots of times, but my condition is more under control. My old rituals are still in my mind, I just have to keep myself occupied.
'I’m quite obsessed about my weight and appearance and how people see me, but things are better. I want to continue to learn more about myself and I keep an open mind.
'I take life as it comes and the more I help other people, the more in turn it will help me.'

## Post 2 by OceanDream (An Ocean of Thoughts) on Thursday, 09-Feb-2012 17:33:52

Wow. that's really inspiring. Hopefully others will see it this way, too.

## Post 3 by Remy (I've now got the silver prolific poster award! wahoo!) on Thursday, 09-Feb-2012 19:01:58

I do. I've known a number of people with OCD. Nobody who doesn't have it can fully understand how it feels, but it's real, and it's dangerous in certain instances.

## Post 4 by laced-unlaced (Account disabled) on Friday, 10-Feb-2012 6:29:41

yeah it is jess.
i posted this same artickle on fb, and got quite a few comments on it.

## Post 5 by turricane (happiness and change are choices ) on Friday, 10-Feb-2012 11:42:58

when i was a kid, I think i might have had a mild case of it. When I was in 4th grade they showed this movie about fire saftey which scared the crap out of me. for the next ten years or so, I would get out of bed and repeatedly check to see if my door was shut tightly. after i did this several times i was able to go to sleep. when i went away to college i quit. the thought of a stranger who was my roommate seeing me do it caused me to stop. my mom had it mildly too. she'd always go back to make sure the stove was turned off several times before leaving the house. we never knew it was a disorder. we figured it was just mom being herself.

## Post 6 by OceanDream (An Ocean of Thoughts) on Friday, 10-Feb-2012 13:10:31

Like all disorders, I'm sure there are varying degrees of it. Obviously the milder the case, the easier it would be to keep it under control.

## Post 7 by Reyami (I've broken five thousand! any more awards going?) on Saturday, 11-Feb-2012 4:46:36

I used to do that when it came to checking if doors are locked before leaving the house and before going to bed, sometimes three or four times, just because I couldn't always remember locking them or if another family member had told me they were locked.

## Post 8 by redgirl34 (Scottish) on Saturday, 11-Feb-2012 19:33:56

I have heard of O C D but don't know anyone with it. I have seen some programmes on the tv about it to.

## Post 9 by Imprecator (The Zone's Spelling Nazi) on Monday, 05-Mar-2012 8:39:24

I check to make sure my door is locked and the lights are off all the time. I also wash my hands quite a bit, which is OK, I haven't been sick in three years since I started doing that on a regular basis.

## Post 10 by OceanDream (An Ocean of Thoughts) on Tuesday, 06-Mar-2012 8:11:00

But after you've washed your hands once, or twice if they're really dirty, you can actually stop and say: "OK. I think that's sufficient for now. I'll go about my life and wash my hands again when they get dirty", right? yes, washing your hands is one of the simplest ways to prevent sickness, but it's not the only way. You may just have a really good immune system. Or, perhaps something else you do, or don't do is also helping to prevent you from getting sick.

## Post 11 by Imprecator (The Zone's Spelling Nazi) on Tuesday, 06-Mar-2012 9:54:01

I just went nuts with the hand sanitizer a few years ago when the swine flu thing happened. Just became a habbit.

## Post 12 by OceanDream (An Ocean of Thoughts) on Tuesday, 06-Mar-2012 15:08:20

One problem, though: You can't actually kill a virus. You can take measures to avoid exposing yourself, but a virus needs a living cell to survive and cary out its functions anyway. the flu, in all its various strains, is a virus. So, while you can technically say that washing your hands will prevent you from being exposed because it causes the virus to be removed from your skin, you haven't actually killed it, and therefore, you can accomplish the same thing by rubbing your hands under water for a few seconds.
Yes, it is true that some kinds of soap and hand sanitizer will kill bacteria, but most common sicknesses aren't caused by bacteria.