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  ,MY "N IS ,LUCY & ,I 0 WOND]+ H[ _M
PILLS Y H 6TAKE 6DIE4 ,I WANT 6KILL MYF
B ! ONLY WAY ,I W IS 6TAKE "S SLEEP+
PILLS4 ,I WANT 6KILL MYF 2C NO "O 9 MY
FAMILY WANTS ME >.D & S*OOL IS N GO+
WELL = ME & NO "O AT S*OOL LIKES ME4
,I'M S 3FUS$4 ,PL1SE HELP ME4
      ,LUCY
,,DE> ,,J]RY1
  ,MY "N IS ,DONNA & ,I W TURN #AC NEXT
MON?4 ,MY LIFE IS A LIV+ HELL4 ,NOVEMB]
#I MY BE/ FR'S BRO!R %OT HMF 9 ! H1D &
DI$ 9/ANTLY4 ,HE 0 A FRE%MAN4 ,!N ? PA/
,OCTOB]1 ,LISA HUNG H]F 9 H] CLOSET4 ,&
J TD MY BE/ FR WRITES ME A LR TELL+ ME
,GOD IS CALL+ H] 6-E & JO9 H] BRO!R 9
H1V54 ,I'M SC>$4
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,,DE> ,,MR4 ,,JOHN/ON1
  ,I'VE R1D YR BOOK OV] & OV] B ,I / C'T
F9D ANY R1SON 6LIVE4 ,I ALM KILL$ MYF
TN4 ,I DON'T WANT 6DIE B "!'S NO O!R WAY
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,,J]RY1
  ,0! "T Y GET ? LR ,I WON'T 2 ALIVE4
,X'S S H>D 6G ON )! ?+S ,I D DAILY4 ,I
SUPPLY ALL MY FRS ) DRUGS4 ,AT HOME X'S
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HATR$4 ,6TELL Y ! TRU?1 MY FR DI$ 2C ,I
/>T$ HM ON COCA9E4 ,"S"TS ,I WANT 6CRY

6HM & TELL HM ,I'M SORRY4
      ,BOB
,,DE> ,,J]RY1
  ,MY "N IS ,M>CI4 ,I AM A SOPHOMORE 9
HI< S*OOL4 ,AB TWO WEEKS AGO MY ELEV5
YE> OLD BRO!R TRI$ 6-MIT SUICIDE4 ,C Y
TELL ME H[ AN ELEV5 YE> OLD CD WANT
6KILL HMF8 ,"! H BE5 _M SUICIDE ATTEMPTS
9 ! ELE;T>Y1 MI4LE1 & HI< S*OOLS 9 ! PA/
MON?4 ,& X'S L NO "O GIVES A DAMN4 ,!
PR9CIPALS & SUP]9T5D5T FEEL X'S J A
PHASE WE'RE GO+ "?4
      ,,M>CI
,,DE> ,,J]RY1
  ,9 ,OCTOB] ,I 0 #AE YE>S OLD &A
SOPHOMORE 9 HI< S*OOL4 ,MY FAMILY SITU,N
0 T]RI#1 "O PRO#M AF ANO!R4 ,I GOT A
PLA/IC GALLON MILK JUG & W5T \ & FILL$ X
) GASOL9E4 ,I P\R$ X ON MYF4 ,I LIT "O
MAT* & X W5T \ B ! SECOND "O DIDN'T & 2F
,I KNEW X ,I 0 ON FIRE4 ,I 0 BURN$ OV]
#HJ P]C5T ( MY BODY & H #CRD DEGREE
BURNS EXCEPT = MY FACE4 ,I LO/ "P ( MY
"R LEG LA/ YE> 2C (A B"O 9FEC;N4 ,I'M /
"H ONLY 0! GRACE ( ,GOD4
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,,DE> ,,J]RY1
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,,DE> ,,J]RY1
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?"\S4 ,?"\S ( HURT+ O!RS1 MO/LY MYF4 ,:Y
%D ,I 3T9UE 6LIVE 9 ? UNC>+ _W8 ,MY "F
B1TS ! HELL \ ( ME2 TELLS ME H[ HE HATES
ME1 H[ HE WI%ES ,I 0 D1D4 ,:Y N FULFILL
8 WI%8 ,MY #C.HC ,,GPA M1NS Z M* 6HM Z !
CRAP ON ! BOTTOM ( MY %OE4 ,NO "O C>ES
:AT HAPP5S 6ME1 A LO/ KID ) NO HOPE4
      ,,ADAM
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CRISIS :E!R X 2 GRADES1 DAT+ ISSUES1 EV5
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