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  ,x 0 spr+4 ,! =e/ 0 alive ) gre5 trees & b"rly color$ wildfl{}s4 ,f|r w9t}s _h pass$ s9ce ,rudi _h f.d ,9grid4 ,dur+ t "t1 ,rudi _h be5 gr{+ at an 9cr$i# rate4 ,s fa/1 9 fact1 t "s"ts he felt z if 8 l>ge h&s & feet 2l;g$ 6"s"o else4
  ,9grid _h n be5 s =tunate4 ,al? ,rudi _h d"o 8 be/ 6see t %e 0 well f$1 x seem$ t no am.t ( c>e cd put m* wei<t on h} t9y frame4 ,nor _h %e gr{n m* tall}4 ,despite h} sl{ gr{?1 h{"e1 %e _h alw seem$ active & h1l?y until ! la/ week or s :5 %e develop$ a /range
 ra% on h} h&s & feet4 ,at f/ ! ra% seem$ only 6annoy h} 0caus+ a 3/ant it*+4 ,!n %e lo/ h} appetite & grew re/.s at ni<t4 ,rudi 2gan 6worry4
  8,-e on1 ,9grid10 he pl1d$1 z he plac$ "s b}ries he _h pick$ 96h} h&4 8,y re,y h 6eat40
  ,%e took !m li/.sly b made no attempt 6eat !m4
  8,if y eat1 ,i'll get y m draw+ /"os & make y "s m p5cils10 he sd1 try+ 6tempt h}4
  ,rudi _h 4cov}$ ,9grid's pas.n = mak+ pictures e>ly 9 _! "t tgr1 & he _h tri$ 6keep h} suppli$ ) smoo?1 li<t-color$ /"os & *>r$ b>k4 ,! /"os 7 a gd sub/itute = pap}1 &! b>k made excell5t p5cils4 ,b n{1 ev5 ! promise ( >t supplies cd n make h} eat ! few b}ries he _h giv5 6h}4
  ,%e sat mo;n.s1 h} toy ra2it drap$ c>e.sly acr h} knee4 ,! play?+ _h tak5 q a b1t+ dur+ _! "t tgr4 ,x 0 s soil$ & ra7$ t x cd sc>cely 2 id5tifi$ z a ra2it any l;g}4 ,rudi _h tri$ 6take x f h} once 6wa% x1 b %e prote/$ s /r;gly t he f9,y gave up4 ,x 0 _! only r1l >gu;t4
  8,i wi% my "f 7 "h10 he f9,y sd1 sp1k+ m 6hmf ?an 6,9grid4 8,he'd 2 a# 6d "s?+ = y4 ,ev5 ,osc> wd h be5 a# 6d m = y ?an ,i c n{40
  ,b ! ?"| ( ,osc> br"| ano!r idea 6m9d4 ,he rememb}$ ,anna4 ,maybe %e cd help4 ,he _h n be5 6see h} s9ce t ni<t ov} ?ree ye>s ago :5 he & ,osc> _h "p$4 ,af ! ,g}mans _h 9cr1s$ _! ?r1ts1 ! villag}s grew m fe>;l4 ,f>m}s 2gan report+ _! nei<bors = h|s+ or fe$+ ,jews or resi/.e fi<t}s4 ,rudi _h he>d ,( s"eal villag}s :o _h be5 %ot 2c ( s* a3us,ns4 ,al? ,anna's f>m 0 m seclud$ ?an mo/1 ,rudi / hesitat$ 6visit1 mo/ly 2c ( ,josef4 ,t boy cd n 2 tru/$4
  ,b n{ z he look$ at ,9grid1 he 2gan 6reconsid}4
  ,maybe "! 0 "s way 6g 6,anna's )|t putt+ h} 9 any dang}4 ,if ,josef kept quiet1 ,rudi cd pass (f z ,anna's hir$ help1 = ev5 if "s (! o!r villag}s did see hm1 he knew t !y wd n suspect t he 0 ,jewi%4 ,& x 0 -mon = "y ,poli% boys :o _h lo/ _! families 6drift f f>m 6f>m1 "w+ = food & %elt}4 ,maybe1 j maybe1 he cd /ay ) h} until ,9grid 0 well ag4 ,he cd at l1/ visit ,anna & see :at %e ?"| (! idea4 ,he 0 3fid5t t %e wd 2 h"o/ ) hm4
  ,ev5 if %e does advise u 6return 6! =e/1 he ?"|1 a visit w help4 ,i c at l1/ get "s advice1 & possibly "s m$ic9e1 = ,9grid4
  ,:5 ,anna op5$ ! door1 ,rudi 0 "s:at />tl$4 ,he _h rememb}$ h} 2+ m* tall} & m frly4 ,%e did n seem "picul>ly glad 6see hm4
  8,hello1 ,anna10 he sd1 !n hesitat$4 8,y sd if ,i "e ne$$ any?+ to--0
  8,rudi60 %e gasp$1 cutt+ hm (f4 8,-e in1 -e in10 %e urg$1 look+ m & m z he rememb}$ h}4 ,%e mo;n$ = !m 6-e & sit d{n4
  8,y've c}ta9ly *ang$10 %e sd & ru%$ ab ! kit*51 gett+ plates & food | (! cupbo>ds4
  8,i guess ,i h10 ,rudi admitt$ z he sat d{n & lift$ ,9grid up on 8 knee4
  8,& :o's ?80 ,anna ask$1 z %e set "s br1d 2f !m4
  8,? is ,9grid10 ,rudi answ}$ z he 2gan 6eat4 ,anna smil$ & b5t =w>d 6greet ! ll girl4 8,h{ d y d1 ,9grid80
  8,%e doesn't talk10 ,rudi sd 2t m|?;ls4 8b 2lieve me10 he a4$ )a smile1 8%e c let y "k :at %e wants40
  ,rudi tri$1 )|t su3ess1 6get ,9grid 6eat a piece ( br1d4
  8,%e doesn't seem 6h m* spunk tn10 ,ann obs}v$4
  8,no10 sd ,rudi4 8,t's :y ,i've -e4 ,%e's sick1 ,anna1 & ,i don't "k :at 6d4 ,see h} sk98 x's gett+ all blot*y1 & %e's lo/ h} appetite too4 ,doesn't want 6sleep ei40
  ,anna r1*$ | & took h}4 ,9grid made no objec;n4
  8,well1 ! f/ ?+ %e ne$s is a gd hot ba?10 ,anna sd z %e cradl$ ,9grid 9 h} lap4 ,%e gl.ed at ,rudi4 8,& ,i ?9k y cd use "o z well40
  8,i ?9k y're "r10 sd ,rudi1 & he felt ! color ris+ 9 8 *eeks4
  ,%e !n l1n$ back 9 h} *air & gave hm a m ?or|< appraisal4 8,y cd use a haircut & "s new clo!s z well40
  8,y %d h se5 my hair 2f n{4 ,x got s bad t ,i _h 6take a *.e at visit+ a f>m} & 3v9c+ hm 6let me use 8 %e>s4 ,z x turn$ |1 8 wife gave ,9grid & me "s clo!s z well40
  8,i / c't 2lieve h{ m* y've gr{n60 ,%e gave h} h1d a %ake4 8,y m/ 2 at l1/ a foot tall}4 ,x's a gd ?+ y grew up fa/} ?an y grew |4 ,o!rwise1 y wd've ripp$ ~? tr|s}s 6%r$s40
  ,rudi lau<$4 8,hav5't _h a *.e 6look at myf m* s9ce ,i saw y la/40
  8,!n x's "t y did10 sd ,anna4 8,i ?9k y may 2 surpris$4 ,g4 ,"!'s a small mirror on ! bur1u ov} "!40
  ,rudi w5t ov} 6! bur1u & pick$ up ! mirror4 ,he /ood a mo;t1 look+ at ! 9tricately c>v$ h&le1 z if /all+ = "t4 ,= "s r1son he 0 hesitant 6br+ ! mirror up 6his face4 ,f ,anna's reac;n he 0 n s sure he want$ 6see h{ he _h *ang$-4
  ,:at he did see -pletely a/oni%$ hm4 ,aside f ! fact t 8 hair 0 an absolutely matt$ mess1 he cd b>ely recognize 8 face4 ,he 0 no l;g} a r.d-fac$ boy4 ,8 face 0 m* ?9n} & m angul>4 ,8 f1tures 7 l>g} & 8 jaw /r;g4 ,z he /ood />+ at hmf1 he r1liz$ t ?|< he 0 fair l 8 "m1 he look$ m l 8 "f ?an he _h "e imag9$ possi#4
  8,y've turn$ | 6be q a h&"s "y man10 ,anna sd1 8?|< y'll n 2 a# 6see t until y get cl1n$ up40
  ,rudi 0 / too daz$ 6-;t4 ,%e tri$1 unsu3ess;lly1 6hide a smile4 8,if y c pull yrf away f t mirror1 y mi<t help me get yr ba? r1dy40
  8,oh1 sure4 ,sorry10 ,rudi sd4 ,he turn$ away f ! mirror4
  8,g 96! next room "!1 & br+ t l>ge metal tub | "h10 ,anna 9/ruct$ hm4 8,y'll f9d x 2h ! curta940
  ,rudi obey$4 8,y're bo? go+ 6ne$ "s new clo!s10 ,anna 0 say+ z ,rudi re5t}$ )! tub4 8,~? t y h on n{ w h 6be burn$40
  8,b ? is all ,i h10 he sd4 8,& ,9grid doesn't h any o!r clo!s ei4 ,i f.d h} 9 a hayl(t40
  ,anna look$ 9dignant4 8,x's 4grace;l ! ?+s help.s *n >e driv5 6~! "ds10 %e sd4 ,%e /ood s"eal mo;ts ?9k+1 h} h&s re/+ firmly on h} hips4
  8,i ?9k ,i c f9d "s = y1 %e sd4 ,i h mo/ ( my husb&'s ?+s1 & y've gr{n 5 6": !y w fit y nicely1 ,i ?9k40
  8,?ank y10 he sd4
  ,anna walk$ ov} & collect$ ! coat & sc>f ,rudi _h remov$ z soon z he _h 5t}$ ! cottage4 ,%e ga!r$ up ,9grid's coat z well4
  8,y c h my coat10 he told h}1 8b y'd bett} l1ve ! sc>f40
  ,anna 0 firm4 8,x all goes40
  8,b x's n m9e1 ,anna1 x's ,osc>'s10 he expla9$4 8,i don't m9d y burn+ my clo!s1 b ,i'm n s sure ab lett+ y burn his40
  8,osc>'s1 is x80 ,anna cross$ ! room & dropp$ ! clo!s j |tside ! door4 8,well1 :5 he returns & asks y = x1 y j s5d hm 6me4 8,i'll take c>e ( hm40
  8,i bet y w10 sd ,rudi )a smile4
  8,x'll take me a bit m "t 6-e up ) "s?+ = ,9grid10 %e sd4 8,i'll h 6make h} "s4 ,b until ,i c get 6t ,i c c}ta9ly f9d "s?+ to at l1/ wrap h} up in40
  8,well10 sd ,rudi1 8y've solv$ all ! pro#ms 2f ,i've ev5 ?"| ( !m40
  8,n all ( !m10 sd ,anna1 wat*+ ,9grid c>e;lly1
  ,%e mo;n$ = ,rudi 6-e close 6h}4 8,t ra2it10 %e sd1 po9t+ at ,9grid's once-/u6$ toy4 8,x w h 6be burn$ )! clo!s40
  ,rudi %ook 8 h1d4 8,i ?9k %e'd r let me ?an t ra2it40
  8,i 0 afraid ( t40 ,anna set a pot ( wat} on ! /ove 6h1t4 8,/1 ,i'm afraid t ra% ( h}s is 9fecti|s4 ,t toy is too fil?y 6keep4 ,= h} {n gd1 x has 6g40
  8,c't we wa% x or "s?+80 pl1d$ ,rudi4
  8,i've ?"| ( t10 sd ,anna1 8b x's s ra7$ l{ t x wd n"e hold up "u a dec5t scru2+40
  8,i don't "k1 ,anna4 ,9 all ! "t ,i've "kn h} %e hasn't let t ?+ | ( h} si<t40
  ,b ,anna 0 firm on ! po9t4 8,d y want 6sp1k 6h} or % ,i80 %e ask$4
  ,9grid sat look+ at !m bo? f acr ! room4 ,rudi cd tell t %e s5s$ "s?+ 0 wr;g4 ,he _h f.d l;g ago t "! 0 no hid+ ?+s f h}4
  8,li/51 ,9grid10 he 2gan z he walk$ ov} 6! ta# & pull$ a *air close 6h}s4 8,yr ra2it--x's1 well1 x's aw;lly dirty40
  ,%e look$ at hm suspici|sly1 !n drew ! ra7$ toy clos} 6h}4
  ,rudi took a deep br1? & !n 3t9u$4 8,we ?9k x may 2 :at's mak+ y sick4 ,we're go+ 6h to--well1 put x away40
  ,h} l{} lip 2gan 6trem#1 & %e turn$ h} face f hm4
  8,look1 ,9grid10 he sd1 8y "k ,i'd n"e take x f y if ,i didn't h to4 ,x's j t ,i love y4 ,i don't want y 6be sick4 ,y "u/& t1 don't y80
  ,he r1*$ | & g5tly took ! ra2it f h}4 ,%e did n fi<t hm--: 9 "s ways only made x worse = hm4 ,9/1d ( fi<t+1 %e simply gave up4 ,!n1 slid+ d{n f h} *air1 %e w5t ov} 6! corn} (! room4
  ,rudi h&$ ! toy 6,anna & foll{$ ,9grid1 ,%e /ood fac+ ! wall s t ,rudi cd n see h} face4 ,/1 he cd tell 0h} v po/ure t %e felt 2tray$4 ,he r1*$ | 6h} & took h} h&1 b %e drew back f hm4
  ,he look$ 6,anna1 :o /ood hold+ ! toy4 8,,i'll 2 "r back10 %e sd & left )|t fur!r explan,n4
  ,rudi 3t9u$ kneel+ 2s ,9grid1 feel+ absolutely wret*$ until ,anna return$4
  ,:5 %e 5t}$1 %e no l;g} held ! ra2it1 b 9 xs place %e _h a puppy4 ,x 0 ! prettie/ dog he _h "e se54 ,%e br"| ! dog 6,rudi & h&$ x 6hm4 ,x 0 small 5 6lie -=tably al;g 8 =e>m & h&1 xs front legs dangl+ d{n on ei side4 ,x 0 z :ite z sn{ & _h b"r blue eyes4 ,z he took x1 x gave hm a frly swipe on ! face ) xs loll+ t;gue4
  8,:at k9d is x80 he :isp}$4
  8,a sl$ge dog--a malemute10 ,anna sd1 no l;g} talk+ s(tly4 8,i got rid ( all ! pups b ? "o2 ,i cdn't "p ) x4 ,at l1/1 n until ,i f.d "s"o :o'd love x & take c>e ( x40
  ,rudi turn$ ag 6,9grid4 8,9grid1 "h's "s?+ = y4 ,x's n a ra2it1 b x ne$s "s"o 6c>e = x40
  ,%e turn$ only sli<tly1 b 5 6cat* a glimpse (! dog4
  8,does x h a "n80 ,rudi ask$4
  8,i call h} ,sa%a10 ,anna repli$4 ,rudi put ,sa%a d{n 2s ,9grid4 ,! pup mov$ ov} & lick$ ,9grid's boots4 ,af ? 9itial 89spec;n10 ,sa%a decid$ x 0 safe 6sit on ,9grid's feet4 ,once -=tably settl$1 %e 2gan 6rub h} nose ag/ ! ll girl's legs4
  8,see1 %e doesn't want me 6take c>e ( h}4 ,%e wants y to10 ,rudi told ,9grid4
  ,9grid look$ d{n at ! s(t :ite ball ( fur4 ,af a mo;t's hesit,n1 %e l1n$ ov} & tri$ 6hold ! puppy 9 h} h&s4
  ,rudi br1!d a si< ( relief4 ,! crisis 0 ov}4 8,x feels grt 6be cl1n60 sd ,rudi z he set "s plates on ! ta# = d9n}4 8,?anks =! haircut1 too10 he a4$1 return+ = m di%es4
  8,y ne$n't ?ank me10 ,anna lau<$4 8,i only help$ y cl1n up | ( self-def5se40
  ,rudi took ! bant}+ gd-natur$ly4 8,9 any case x has help$4 ,ev5 ,9grid's p}k$ up a bit n{ t %e's _h a ba? & all4 ,look1 %e's ev5 hungry-%e's got h} f+}s 9 ! *eese10 he sd1 tak+ ! cups ,anna _h giv5 hm4
  8,yes1 %e does10 sd ,anna4 8,b y notice %e's n ! "o eat+ x40
  ,rudi turn$4 ,sure 51 ,9grid 0 tak+ hunks ( *eese f ! plate & fe$+ !m 6,sa%a4
  8,well10 he sd1 8at l1/ ! dog's got a gd appetite4 ,i / ?9k ,9grid's feel+ bett} ?|<1 don't y8 ,maybe · gd ba? 0 all t %e ne$$40
  8,i ?9k ! ba? help$10 sd ,anna4 8,i al put "s o9t;t on h}4 ,b x'll 2 a few "ds 2f we "k = sure if %e ne$s "s?+ m40 ,see+ ,rudi's 3c}n1 %e a4$1 8,i'm sure %e'll 2 f9e 9 a week or two1 ?|<40
  8,by ! way10 ,rudi ask$ z !y sat d{n 6d9n}1 ":'s 8,,josef80
  8,hav5't se5 hm 9 s"eal mon?s10 ,anna sd4
  8,:at happ5$8 ,did y two h an >gu;t or "s?+80
  ,anna lau<$4 8,rudi1 y %d rememb} 5 ab ,josef 6"k t "ey"o >gu$ ) hm4 ,i don't ?9k he'd pick a fi<t ) y n{1 ?|<4 ,y're probably a gd h1d tall} ?an he is1 & ,i assure y1 he is n a brave boy4 ,z 6:y he left1 6be h"o/1 don't "k = sure1 ?|< ,i h my suspicions4 ,i "k ,only t he's g"o 6,w>saw40
  8,:y 9 ! _w wd he want 6g 96! c;y80 ,rudi ask$4 8,he 0 m* bett} (f "h--pl5ty 6eat &a w>m place 6sleep4 ,anna1 ,w>saw 0 aw;l :5 ,i left x f|r ye>s ago4 ,p 7 />v+ 6d1? !n4 ,i'm sure x hasn't gott5 any bett}40
  ,%e look$ at hm )a curi|s expres.n4 8,mo/ (! p 7 />v+1 ,rudi4 ,b ,i'll wag} t "! 7 o!rs :o knew h{ 6fill _! bellies & make a pr(it 2ss40
  8,! only p ,i saw ) full bellies 7 ! ,g}mans10 ,rudi answ}$4
  8,& ! ,poles :o'd "w = !m10 ,anna a4$4
  8,i didn't "k anybody l t10 ,rudi sd4
  8,( c|rse y didn't10 ,anna sd4 8,f/ ( all1 ,i d|bt yr "f 0 ! k9d ( man 6"k s* p1 & if he did1 ,i d|bt he wd h let y associate ) !m4 ,2ss1 y m/ rememb} t y left ,w>saw only mon?s af ! takeov}4 ,! ,ge/apo _hn't _h "t 6/ir up 5 ruckus 6make ! rats -e runn+ | ( _! holes40
  ,rudi fr{n$4 8,no ,pole wd help a ,nazi40
  8,y =get ,josef40
  8,josef's j /upid4 ,he talks l he wd1 b if he'd be5 9 ! c;y & se5 :at !y 7 l1 he wd *ange 8 m9d all "r40
  8,!n :y does he /ay 9 ! c;y80 ask$ ,anna4
  ,rudi hesitat$4 8,i c't answ} t10 he f9,y sd4 8,i 2lieve ,i c10 ,anna told hm4 8,i ?9k he's do+ "s spy+ =! ,nazis & gett+ a gd price = x40
  8,:at k9d ( spy+80 ask$ ,rudi4
  8,oh1 l f9d+ ,jews :o h g"o 96hid+ 6escape deport,n4 ,! ,g}mans pay well = s* 9=m,n4
  8,i'm tell+ y1 ,anna1 n ev5 ,josef cd d s* a ?+--n once he'd se5 ! ,nazis 9 ac;n10 sd ,rudi4
  ,anna's voice 0 alm %>p4 8,d y ?9k t ! ,nazis >e ! only m5 :o >e cruel80
  ,h} look & h} voice made hm feel a ll fooli%4 8,( c|rse n6 ,b !y >e ! wor/40
  8,i see10 sd ,anna4 8,! ,poles1 ! ,fr5*1 ! ,5gli%1 ! ,am}icans--!y cd n 2 s bad80
  8,no10 sd ,rudi4
  8,y're wr;g1 ,rudi10 %e sd4 8,y "k ,i h n alw be5 a f>m girl4 ,i grew up 9 ! c;y4 ,my "f's busi;s (t5 took hm 6o!r "ps ( ,europe1 &a few "ts ! family w5t al;g ) hm4 ,we w5t 6,fr.e twice & ,5gl& once4 ,d y "k :at ,i f.d1 ,rudi8 ,i f.d t "! >e gd--& bad--m5 "ey":40
  ,rudi sat />+ d{n at 8 plate4
  8,y don't 2lieve me10 %e sd4
  8,i 2lieve y1 ,anna10 ,rudi f9,y admitt$4 8,z a matt} ( fact1 ,i 0 j ?9k+ h{ m* l my "f y s.d$40
  8,ah1 yes1 yr "f10 ,anna sd4 8,osc> told me ( hm1 a gd man4 ,& alw "r too10 %e a4$1 smil+4
  8,mo/ alw10 ,rudi sd4 8,tell me10 sd ,anna1 8:at wd yr "f say80
  ,rudi smil$4 8,he wd say3 ,8,rudi1 m5 >e n evi 2c !y foll{ ,hitl}4 ,!y foll{ ,hitl} 2c !y >e evil1 2c !y refuse ! grace ( ,god40' ,& he wd rem9d me t a"p f ,god's grace1 ,i cd 2 j z !y >e40
  8,d y 2lieve t80 ,anna ask$4
  ,rudi hesitat$ a mo;t4 8,yes10 he f9,y sd4 8,! ?+s t ,i h se5 dur+ ? w> h made me v angry1 ,anna4 ,s angry t ,i h at "ts be5 fill$ ) hate40
  8,y h a "r 6be angry1 & ev5 6hate at "ts10 %e sd4 8,i am c}ta9 ev5 a man l yr "f wd agree40
  8,yes10 sd ,rudi1 8he'd agree t ,i %d hate ! evil & ev5 t ,i %d d all 9 my p{} 6fi<t x4 ,b he'd al tell me t ,i m/ fi<t 2c ,i love ! gd1 n 2c ,i hate m540
  8,x's h>d 6sep>ate ! m5 f ! evil !y d4 ,>e y a# 6d t80 ask$ ,anna4
  ,he _h 6hesitate on t4 8,i "k t ,i love ! gd10 he falt}$4
  8,!n y >e f>!r ?an mo/ m510 sd ,anna4 ,al? ,anna 0 satisfi$ ) 8 gr{?1 ,rudi knew t nei 8 e>?ly "f nor 8 h1v5ly ,"f wd be4 ,!y wd n 2 satisfi$ until 8 he>t 0 pure 5 6hate evil )|t hat+ evil m54 ,& he _h an uneasy feel+ t "! wd soon -e a "t :5 ,god wd try hm 6see 9de$ :at k9d ( he>t he _h4
