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  8,"ey?+'s all "r at yr place1 ,judd80 a nei<bor call$ | z ,judd ,?ompson h1d$ >.d 6! back (! h|se4
  8,don't "k yet10 ,judd holl}$4
  ,9 tru?1 ( c|rse1 he did "k4 ,he knew exactly :at he wd f9d 9 t h|se4 ,! buzz (! *ampagne 0 l;g g"o1 & he felt su45ly fooli% ) 8 scra7ly goatee1 8 wallet full ( ca%1 & t top-(-!-l9e cr$it c>d4 ,>5't ,i "s?+8 ,he ask$ hmf4 ,big man4 ,big crim9al4 ,big%ot4 ,n{ ,i'm an orphan4 ,he felt l a *1 despite 8 sixte5 ye>s4
  ,judd ran up/airs & *eck$ ,m>cie's room f/4 ,%e 0 ! p}snickety "o1 ! "o :o alw kept h} room j s1 dolls l9$ up 9 a r{1 h} s*oolbooks &! next "d's clo!s laid | n1tly4 ,two t9y b>rettes lay 9 ! d5t 9 ! pill{ h} d>k-hair$ h1d _h left4 ,judd pull$ back ! cov}s1 rev1l+ h} ni<tie4
  ,9 ,m>c's room1 : 0 alm z messy z ,judd's {n1 he f.d socks & "upants 9 ! b$4
  ,he gl.ed at 8 {n room 2f h1d+ d{n 6! ma/} b$room4 ,8 p>5ts _h be5 9 "!1 t 0 cle>4 ,!y _h g"o "? 8 /uff1 look+ = clues 6": he mi<t be4 ,maybe !y _h call$ ! libr>y 6*eck on hm4 ,"sh{1 !y _h figur$ x |1 b he _h left no clues 9 8 b$room4 ,fool+ !m1 trick+ !m1 putt+ "o ov} on !m _h seem$ s cool :5 he 0 on 8 way 6,o',h>e4 ,n{ he felt l an idiot4
  ,judd _h a s9k+ feel+ 9 ! pit ( 8 /oma* z he desc5d$ ! /airs4 ,he want$ 8 ll bro!r & si/} & 8 p>5ts 6be ) ,jesus1 ( c|rse4 ,t 0 :at !y want$1 :at !y talk$ ab1 :at !y look$ =w>d to4 ,b he didn't want 6be al"o1 ei4
  ,he slipp$ 96his p>5ts' b$room1 ": ! curta9s 7 clos$ & x 0 d>k4 ,he didn't turn ! li<t on1 lett+ 8 eyes gr{ a3u/om$ 6! d>k;s4 ,judd %ut ! door & l1n$ back ag/ x1 feel+ w1k4 ,he _hn't slept m* on ! plane1 & n{ he 0 pay+ =! n}v|s 5}gy t _h kept hm awake4
  ,judd 0 /unn$ 6see t 8 p>5ts' b$ 0 / made4 ,cd x be8 ,0 x possi# !y _h n be5 tak58 ,no6 ,x cdn't be6  ,he :ipp$ ! cov}s back & saw no b$clo!s4 ,he look$ >.d ! room1 n{ turn+ on ! li<t4 ,8 "m's robe 0 drap$ ov} a *air4 ,? made no s5se4 ,he f.d 8 "f's robe 9 ! closet & held | a flick} ( hope4 ,b :at 0 he hop+8 ,t 8 ll bro!r & si/} _h be5 tak5 & 8 p>5ts _h n8
  ,he ran 6! liv+ room1 ": ! tru? qkly 2came cle>4 ,! ph"o rcvr 0 on ! floor4 ,f ! posi;ns ( 8 p>5ts' sets ( clo!s1 x 0 obvi|s !y _h *ang$ back 96!m :5 !y r1liz$ !y mi<t h 6drive "s": 6look = hm4 ,8 dad's j1ns & pullov} %irt & %oes 7 9 a pile ne> ! ph"o4 ,8 "m's casual |tfit lay 9 a *air ": %e _h be5 sitt+4
  ,judd return$ ! ph"o 6xs cradle & scoop$ up ! clo!s4 ,he sat ) !m 9 8 lap & smell$ ! fa9t sc5t ( 8 dad's cologne & 8 "m's p}fume4 ,& he cri$4 ,!y lov$ hm s m*1 c>$ = hm1 worri$ ab hm4 ,& look h{ he _h tr1t$ !m4 ,he held _! clo!s close 6his *e/ & clos$ 8 eyes1 r1liz+ he _h gott5 j :at he des}v$4
  ,8 "m _h told hm & told hm t ,jesus 0 -+ ag & t x cd happ5 9 ,judd's life"t4 ,he knew t 0 :at 8 *ur* tau<t1 b x _h seem$ s prepo/}|s4 ,well1 n any m4 ,x _h happ5$1 & he _h be5 left 2h4 ,:at 0 he go+ 6d8
  ,judd knew "! wd 2 no sleep+1 tir$ z he1 was4 ,he _h 6?9k ab h{ he 0 go+ 6get ! c> back f ,o',h>e4 ,:5 wd t 2 possi#8
  ,:at he %d d1 he knew1 0 g 6his *ur*4 ,8 *ur*4 ,he _hn't call$ ,new ,hope ,village ,*ur* 8 {n *ur* s9ce he 0 9 ele;t>y s*ool4 ,:o wd 2 left "!8 ,0 he ! only memb} :o didn't g 6h1v58 ,he felt al"o 9 ! _w1 n j 9 ? h|se4 ,he decid$ 6call ! *ur*1 j 6see if any"o else 0 >.d4
  ,! voice on ! ,new ,hope answ}+ ma*9e 0 ! visit,n pa/or's1 a man "nd ,bruce ,b>nes1 :o _h be5 "! = s"eal ye>s4 ,x 0 cle> f ! message t he _h be5 left 2h too6 8,y h r1*$ ,new ,hope ,village ,*ur*4 ,we >e plann+ a weekly ,bi# /udy1 b =! "t 2+ we w meet j once ea* ,sun"d at #aj ,a4,m4 ,:ile |r 5tire /aff1 except me1 & mo/ ( |r 3greg,n >e g"o1 ! few ( u left >e ma9ta9+ ! build+ & 4tribut+ a videotape |r s5ior pa/or prep>$ =a "t s* z ?4 ,y may -e 0! *ur* (fice any"t 6pick up a free copy1 & we look =w>d 6see+ y ,sun"d morn+40
  ,judd didn't want 6wait4 ,he look$ = 8 "m's keys & back$ h} c> | (! g>age1 only 6g a c|ple ( blocks & f9d all ! roads block$4 ,he return$ 6get 8 ll bro!r's bike4 ,he 0 way pa/ feel+ self-3sci|s4 ,he 0 on 8 way 6*ur*1 &=! f/ "t 9 z f> back z he cd rememb}1 he re,y want$ 6get "!4
  ,:5 ,ryan ,daley came )9 view ( ,new ,hope ,village ,*ur*1 he didn't "k :at 6?9k4 ,he _h be5 9 a *ur* a c|ple ( "ts 9 8 twelve ye>s1 b n ? "o4 ,a big1 d>k-hair$ kid on a small bike came p$al+ pa/ hm4 ,!y look$ at ea* o!r b didn't sp1k4 ,ryan _h n"e se5 hm 2f4 ,! big kid let 8 bike fall ne> ! front door & hurri$ in4 ,ryan 0 9 no hurry4 ,he didn't "k :o or :at he 0 look+ =4 ,0! "t he got 96! build+1 ! kid :o _h be5 on ! bike 0 talk+ 6a man 9 8 ?irties ) curly hair & wire-rimm$ glasses4 8,c ,i help y1 son80 ! man ask$1 see+ ,ryan ov} ,judd's %|ld}4
  ,ryan cdn't get ! ~ws |4 ,h{ 7 y suppos$ 6ask if x 0 true1 if ,jesus _h tak5 8 p 6h1v58 8,did y lose "s family80 ! man sd4
  ,ryan no4$4 8,!y di$10 he manag$4
  8,no1 !y >e 9 h1v5 ) ,jesus40
  8,!y didn't get tak510 ,ryan 9si/$4 8,my dad di$ 9 a plane cra% & my mom 9 a c> a3id5t40
  ,bruce approa*$ & r1*$ = ,ryan4 ,! boy felt self-3sci|s1 b he let ! man hug hm4 8,my "n is ,bruce ,b>nes10 he sd4 8,i'm ! only p}son left f ! /aff ( ? *ur*1 & ,i "k exactly :at happ5$4 ,i'm go+ 6t1* a small gr|p ( "y p "h soon1 & y're welcome 6/ay40
  8,y're go+ 6t1*80
  ,bruce no4$4 8,i "k :at happ5$ 2c ,i miss$ x4 ,i h a tape f ! s5ior pa/or t w help expla94 ,is t "s?+ y'd 2 9t}e/$ in80
  ,ryan no4$4 ,s did ! big kid1 :om ,bruce 9troduc$ z "s"o f ! *ur* family "nd ,judd ,?ompson4 ,!y %ook h&s4 ,ryan didn't "k any o!r kids z old z ,judd1 except =a few c|s9s 9 ,cali=nia4
  ,bruce sd he 0 expect+ two m kids 6%{ up4 ,i got a call f a girl "nd ,vicki ,byrne4 ,i 9vit$ h}1 & %e call$ back lat} 6say %e _h 9vit$ a boy "nd ,lionel ,wa%+ton4 ,:5 we're all "h1 we'll get />t$4 ,i want 6tell y my /ory40
  ,:5 ,vicki & ,lionel >riv$1 ,bruce took ! f|r ( !m 96a small (fice ": he _h set up a ,,vcr &a ,,tv4 8,y're n go+ 6"u/& "ey?+ ! pa/or says10 ,bruce sd1 8b / y'll 2 a/.d$ t he "ks :at's go+ on1 ev5 ?|< he's g"o4 ,m important1 y ne$ 6"k t ,i h ! same /ory y d4
  8,i lo/ my wife & my "y *n4 ,!y 4appe>$ f _! b$s1 & ,i knew immly t ,i _h be5 liv+ a lie4 ,i _h be5 6,bi# college & 0 a pa/or1 b ,i alw ?"| ,i cd get by1 liv+ = myf & n"e mak+ ! deci.n 6rcv ,*ri/4 ,judd1 ,i "k y & yr family4 ,i'm surpris$ 6see y "h1 b ,i'm n surpris$ ! re/ ( yr family is g"o4 ,y "k :at happ5$1 don't y80
  ,judd no4$ mis}ably4 ,bruce ask$ ! o!rs 6%>e _! /ories4 ,!y cri$ :5 !y spoke1 & !y cri$ :5 !y li/5$4 ,!y _h be5 ?ru/ tgr 0a trag$y n"o ( !m cd h "e expect$4 8,i "k x's h>d = y 6grasp "r n{10 ,bruce sd1 8b ,i h gd news = y4 ,! "q y all m/ h n{ is :e!r "! is any hope = y4 ,y miss$ ,*ri/ :5 he came1 b y >e n lo/ ="e4 ,we're go+ 6live "? "s aw;l "ds & ye>s1 b ! ,bi# is cle> t "! w 2 a grt s|l h>ve/ dur+ ? "t4 ,p c / 2come 2liev}s & 2 assur$ ( h1v5 :5 !y die4
  8,t won't take away yr sorr{1 yr grief1 or yr l"oli;s4 ,i c't ev5 imag9e a "d :5 ,i won't cry ov} :at ,i've lo/4 ,b n{ ,i don't apologize = tell+ "eybody :o -es 9 "h h{ !y c rcv ,*ri/4 ,x's re,y q simple4 ,god made x easy4 ,if y want 6he> ?1 j say s1 & ,i'll walk y "? x40
  ,vicki rais$ a h&4 8,>e y say+ t if we _h d"o ? 2f1 we wdn't h be5 left 2h80
  ,bruce no4$4
  8,& n{ we c / get 6h1v5 :5 we die80
  ,he no4$ ag4 8,"eybody want 6he> ?80
  ,!y all no4$4
  8,f/10 he sd1 8we h 6see |rvs z ,god sees u4 ,! ,bi# says all h s9n$1 t "! is n"o "re|s1 no1 n "o4 ,x al says we c't save |rvs4 ,lots ( p ?"| !y cd e>n _! way 6,god or 6h1v5 0do+ gd ?+s1 b t's ! bi7e/ mis"u/&+ "e4 ,! ,bi# says x's n 0"ws we h d"o1 b 0his m}cy t ,god saves u4 ,we >e sav$ 0grace "? ,*ri/1 n ( |rvs1 s we c't brag ab |r gd;s40
  8,b ,i didn't d any?+ gd10 ,vicki sd4 8,i didn't ev5 try 6get 6h1v5 2c ,i didn't re,y 2lieve any ( ?40
  8,:at d y ?9k n{80 ,bruce sd k9dly4
  8,i ?9k ,i 0 wr;g40
  8,me too10 ,judd sd4
  8,me ?ree10 ,lionel sd4
  ,ryan sd no?+1 b x 0 cle> 6,bruce he 0 li/5+4 ,? 0 all br&new 6hm1 except = :at ,raymie _h tri$ 6tell hm4
  8,! puni%;t = s9 is d1?10 ,bruce 3t9u$4 8,jesus took |r s9s & pd ! p5alty = !m 0dy+ s we wdn't h to4 ,he di$ 9 |r place 2c he loves u4 ,:5 we tell ,*ri/ t we "k we >e s9n}s & lo/ & !n we rcv 8 gift ( salv,n1 he saves u4 ,a transac;n takes place1 a d1l4 ,we g f d>k;s 6li<t1 f lo/ 6f.d4 ,we're sav$4 ,! ,bi# says t 6~? :o rcv hm he gives ! p{} 62come sons ( ,god4 ,t's :at ,jesus is--! ,son ( ,god4 ,:5 we 2come sons ( ,god1 we h :at ,jesus has3 ,we 2come "p ( ,god's family1 we h =give;s = |r s9s1 & we h et}nal life4
  8,af y wat* ? video |r pa/or left 2h1 ,i'm go+ 6ask y "s?+ ,i n"e want$ 6ask p 2f4 ,i want 6"k if y're r1dy 6rcv ,*ri/ "r n{4 ,i'll pray ) y & help y1 talk 6,god ab x4 ,x may seem too fa/ = y4 ,? may 2 new 6y4 ,i don't want y 6make a ha/y deci.n :5 y're / 9 %ock ov} :at has happ5$4 ,b nei d ,i want y 6wait too l;g1 6put ? (f :5 ! _w is a m dang}|s place ?an x's "e be54 ,maybe y miss$ ,*ri/ ! f/ "t >.d 2c y didn't "k any bett}4 ,b n{ y "k4 ,:at cd 2 worse ?an "k+ & !n / dy+ )|t ,*ri/80
  ,! f|r kids sat "!1 ea* griev+ 9 8 or h} {n way4 ,judd _h be5 hum#d4 ,vicki felt a fool4 ,lionel felt a sad;s s deep he didn't "k if x wd "e g away4 ,ryan 0 puzzl$4 ,raymie _h told hm all ?1 & ,ryan _h ?"| x 0 /upid4 ,he didn't ?9k s anymore4
  ,z !y wat*$ ! video (! s5ior pa/or1 n{ 9 h1v51 tell+ :at 0 go+ on & h{ !y cd -e 6,*ri/1 ea* felt a su45 close;s 6! o!r4 ,bruce told !m t if !y 2came 2liev}s1 !y wd 2 bro!rs & si/}s 9 ,*ri/4 ,!y cd 2come ea* o!r's family4
  ,!y wd 4cov} _! 3nec;ns lat}4 ,judd wd "o "d r1lize t ,ryan 0 ! be/ fr (! son (! pilot (! plane he _h be5 on4 ,vicki knew ,lionel "? 8 si/}1 b %e didn't "k t 8 "m _h "w$ =! same magaz9e z a man :o _h be5 on ! plane ) ,judd4
  ,= n{ !y 7 simply f|r kids f ! same t{n :o %>$ a -mon horror & grief4 ,bruce seem$  6h 9 m9d = !m a future z a small gr|p4 ,t s.d$ gd 6ea*1 especi,y 9 _! gnaw+ l"oli;s4
  ,:5 ! video 5d$1 ea* sat /unn$ t ! pa/or _h "kn 9 adv.e all t 0 n{ tak+ place4 ,cle>ly ? 0 tru?4 ,c}ta9ly ? dem&$ _! att5;n &a deci.n4 ,ea* sat />+ z ,bruce pos$ ! "q (! ages4 8,>e y r1dy80 he sd4 8,w y rcv ,*ri/80
