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OP5 & SAIL$ H] OP5 & SAIL$ H] OP5
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& W5T WID] AFIELD = \R ADV5TURES4
  ,& ALL ? GLORI\S PASSAGE 9 MY LIFE 0
MADE POSSI# = ME 0,JOHN ,B>LEYCORN4 ,& ?
IS MY -PLA9T AG/ ,JOHN ,B>LEYCORN4 ,"H
,I WAS1 ?IR/+ =! WILD LIFE ( ADV5TURE1
&! ONLY WAY = ME 6W9 6X 0 "? ,JOHN
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LIV$ ! LIFE4 ,DID ,I WI% 6LIVE ! LIFE1
,I M/ LIVE X ! WAY !Y DID4 ,X 0 0VIRTUE
( DR9K+ T ,I GA9$ T "PN]%IP & -RADE%IP )
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SIDE1 Z WELL Z ! "W SIDE ( LIFE4
  ,I AB&ON$ MYF 6! LIFE1 & DEVELOP$ !
MISCONCEP;N T ! SECRET ( ,JOHN
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"? ! SU3ESSIVE /AGES T ONLY AN IRON
3/ITU;N CD 5DURE 6F9AL /UPEFAC;N & SW9I%
UNCONSCI\S;S4 ,I DID N L ! TA/E1 S ,I
DRANK =! SOLE PURPOSE ( GETT+ DRUNK1 (
GETT+ HOPE.SLY1 HELP.SLY DRUNK4 ,& ,I1
:O _H SAV$ & SCRAP$1 TRAD$ L A ,%YLOCK &
MADE JUNKM5 WEEP2 ,I1 :O _H /OOD A<A/ :5
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ANY ( !M4
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Z FOLL[S3 A PAIR ( SEA-BOOTS T
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DR9KS F/4 ,I N"E GOT 6! CLO?+ /ORES4 ,9
! MORN+1 BROKE1 POISON$1 B 3T5T$1 ,I
CAME BACK ON BO>D1 & WE SET SAIL4 ,I
POSSESS$ ONLY ! CLO!S ,I _H G"O A%ORE
IN1 & N A C5T REMA9$ (! "O HUNDR$ &
EI<TY DOLL>S4 ,X MI<T WELL 2 DEEM$
IMPOSSI#1 0^? :O H N"E TRI$ X1 T 9
TWELVE H\RS A LAD C SP5D ALL ( "O HUNDR$
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%[N !M ,I CD SP5D )! BE/ ( !M4 ,AM;G/
/R;G M5 ,I _H PROV$ MYF /R;G4 ,I _H
CL9*$ AG1 Z ,I _H (T5 CL9*$1 MY "R 6!
TITLE ( 8,PR9CE40 ,AL1 MY ATTITUDE MAY 2
3SID]$1 9 "P1 Z A REAC;N F MY *ILDHOOD'S
M1GRE;S & MY *ILDHOOD'S EXCESSIVE TOIL4
,POSSIBLY MY 9*OATE ?"\ WAS3 ,BETT]
6REIGN AM;G BOOZE-FI<T]S A PR9CE ?AN
6TOIL TWELVE H\RS A "D AT A MA*9E = T5
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MA*9E TOIL4 ,B IF ! SP5D+ ( "O HUNDR$ &
EI<TY DOLL>S 9 TWELVE H\RS ISN'T A
PURPLE PASSAGE1 !N ,I'D L 6"K :AT IS4
  ,OH1 ,I SKIP M* (! DETAILS ( MY
TRA6ICK+ ) ,JOHN ,B>LEYCORN DUR+ ?
P]IOD1 & % ONLY M5;N EV5TS T W ?R[ LI<T
ON ,JOHN ,B>LEYCORN'S WAYS4 ,"! 7 ?REE
?+S T 5A#D ME 6PURSUE ? H1VY DR9K+3 F/1
A MAGNIFIC5T 3/ITU;N F> BETT] ?AN !
AV]AGE2 SECOND1 ! H1L?Y OP5-AIR LIFE ON
! WAT]2 & ?IRD1 ! FACT T ,I DRANK
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C>RI$ ANY DR9K AL;G4
  ,! _W 0 OP5+ UP 6ME4 ,ALR ,I KNEW
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T[NS & CITIES & FI%+ HAMLETS ON ! %ORES4
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WIDE = ,NELSON4 ,HE WE>I$ = 8 2LOV$
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FI%+ & MAK+ RAIDS UP & D[N BAY & RIV]S Z
A DEPUTY FI% PATROLMAN1 & ,I DRANK M &
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%>E 6%[ ! /R5G? ( MY MANHOOD4 ,:51 ON A
MORN+1 MY UNCONSCI\S C>CASS 0 45TANGL$ F
! NETS ON ! DRY+-FRAMES1 :I!R ,I _H
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ALW1 DRUNK OR SOB]1 AT ! BACK ( MY
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ADV5TUR+ 0 N ALL ( LIFE4 ,? :ISP] 0 MY
GD =TUNE4 ,I HAPP5$ 6BE S MADE T ,I CD
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_W4 ,X 0 N CANNI;S ON MY "P4 ,X 0
CURIOS;Y1 DESIRE 6"K1 AN UNRE/ &A SEEK+
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? 7 ALL8 ,NO2 "! 0 "S?+ M1 AWAY & 2Y4
7,&1 9 REL,N 6MY M* LAT] DEVELOP;T Z A
DR9K]1 ? :ISP]1 ? PROMISE (! ?+S AT !
BACK ( LIFE1 M/ 2 NOT$1 = X 0 DE/9$
6PLAY A DIRE "P 9 MY M REC5T WRE/L+S )
,JOHN ,B>LEYCORN47
  ,B :AT GAVE IMM$IACY 6MY DECI.N 6MOVE
ON 0 A TRICK ,JOHN ,B>LEYCORN PLAY$ ME--
A MON/R\S1 9CR$I# TRICK T %[$ ABYSSES (
9TOXIC,N HI!RTO UNDR1M$4 ,AT "O O'C 9 !
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ABO>D A SLOOP AT ! 5D (! :>F1 9T5D+ 6G
6SLEEP4 ,! TIDES SWEEP "? ,C>QU9EZ
,/RAITS Z 9 A MILL-RACE1 &! FULL EBB 0
ON :5 ,I /UM#D OV]BO>D4 ,"! 0 NOBODY ON
! :>F1 NOBODY ON ! SLOOP4 ,I 0 BORNE
AWAY 0! CURR5T4 ,I 0 N />TL$4 ,I ?"\ !
MISADV5TURE DELI<T;L4 ,I 0 A GD SWIMM]1
& 9 MY 9FLAM$ 3DI;N ! 3TACT (! WAT] ) MY
SK9 SOO!D ME L COOL L954
  ,& !N ,JOHN ,B>LEYCORN PLAY$ ME 8
MANIACAL TRICK4 ,"S MAUND]+ FANCY ( GO+
\ )! TIDE SU45LY OBSESS$ ME4 ,I _H N"E
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SPL5DID CULM9AT+1 A P]FECT R.D+ (F ( MY
%ORT B EXCIT+ C>E]4 ,I1 :O _H N"E "KN
GIRL'S LOVE1 NOR WOMAN'S LOVE1 NOR !
LOVE ( *N2 :O _H N"E PLAY$ 9 ! WIDE JOY-
FIELDS ( >T1 NOR CLIMB$ ! />-COOL HEI<TS
( PHILOSOPHY1 NOR SE5 ) MY EYES M ?AN A
P9-PO9T'S SURFACE (! GORGE\S _W2 ,I
DECID$ T ? 0 ALL1 T ,I _H SE5 ALL1 LIV$
ALL1 BE5 ALL1 T 0 WOR? :ILE1 & T N[ 0 !
"T 6C1SE4 ,? 0 ! TRICK ( ,JOHN
,B>LEYCORN1 LAY+ ME 0! HEELS ( MY
IMAG9,N & 9 A DRUG-DR1M DRA7+ ME 6D1?4
  ,OH1 HE 0 3V9C+4 ,I _H RE,Y EXP]I;ED
ALL ( LIFE1 & X DIDN'T AM.T 6M*4 ,!
SW9I% DRUNK5;S 9 : ,I _H LIV$ = MON?S 7?
0 A3OMPANI$ 0! S5SE ( DEGRAD,N &! OLD
FEEL+ ( 3VIC;N ( S97 0 ! LA/ & BE/1 & ,I
CD SEE = MYF :AT X 0 WOR?4 ,"! 7 ALL !
BROK5-D[N OLD BUMS & LOAF]S ,I _H B"\
DR9KS =4 ,T 0 :AT REMA9$ ( LIFE4 ,DID ,I
WANT 62COME L !M8 ,A ?\S& "TS NO2 & ,I
WEPT TE>S ( SWEET SAD;S OV] MY GLORI\S
Y\? GO+ \ )! TIDE4 7,& :O HAS N SE5 !
WEEP+ DRUNK1 ! MELAN*OLIC DRUNK8 ,!Y >E
6BE F.D 9 ALL ! B>-ROOMS1 IF !Y C F9D NO
O!R LI/5] TELL+ _! SORR[S 6! B>KEEP]1 :O
IS PD 6LI/547
  ,! WAT] 0 DELICI\S4 ,X 0 A MAN'S WAY
6DIE4 ,JOHN ,B>LEYCORN *ANG$ ! TUNE HE
PLAY$ 9 MY DR9K-MA45$ BRA94 ,AWAY ) TE>S
& REGRET4 ,X 0 A H]O'S D1?1 & 0! H]O'S
[N H& & W4 ,S ,I /RUCK UP MY D1?-*ANT &
0 S++ X LU/ILY1 :5 ! GURGLE & SPLA% (!
CURR5T-RI6LES 9 MY E>S REM9D$ ME ( MY M
IMM SITU,N4
  ,2L ! T[N ( ,B5ICIA1 ": ! ,SOLANO :>F
PROJECTS1 ! ,/RAITS WID5 \ 96:AT BAY-
F>]S CALL ! 8,BI<T ( ,TURN]'S ,%IPY>D40
,I 0 9 ! %ORE-TIDE T SWEPT "U ! ,SOLANO
:>F & ON 96! BI<T4 ,I KNEW ( OLD ! P[]
(! SUCK : DEVELOP$ :5 ! TIDE SWUNG >.D !
5D ( ,D1D ,MAN'S ,ISL& & DROVE /RAI<T =!
:>F4 ,I DIDN'T WANT 6G "? ^? PILES4 ,X
WDN'T 2 NICE1 & ,I MI<T LOSE AN H\R 9 !
BI<T ON MY WAY \ )! TIDE4
  ,I UNDRESS$ 9 ! WAT] & /RUCK \ )A
/R;G1 S+LE-OV]H& /ROKE1 CROSS+ ! CURR5T
AT "R-ANGLES4 ,NOR DID ,I C1SE UNTIL1 0!
:>F LI<TS1 ,I KNEW ,I 0 SAFE 6SWEEP 0!
5D4 ,!N ,I TURN$ OV] & RE/$4 ,! /ROKE _H
BE5 A TELL+ "O1 & ,I 0 A LL "T 9 RECOV]+
MY BR1?4
  ,I 0 ELAT$1 = ,I _H SU3E$$ 9 AVOID+ !
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PURELY EXTEMPORIS$ F>RAGO (A DRUG-CRAZ$
Y\?4 8,DON'T S+--YET10 :ISP]$ ,JOHN
,B>LEYCORN4 8,! ,SOLANO RUNS ALL NI<T4
,"! >E RAILROAD M5 ON ! :>F4 ,!Y W HE>
Y1 & -E \ 9 A BOAT & RESCUE Y1 & Y DON'T
WANT 6BE RESCU$40 ,I C]TA9LY DIDN'T4
,:AT8 ,2 RO2$ ( MY H]O'S D1?8 ,N"E4 ,&
,I LAY ON MY BACK 9 ! />LI<T1 WAT*+ !
FAMILI> :>F-LI<TS G BY1 R$ & GRE5 &
:ITE1 & BI4+ SAD S5TI;TAL F>EWELL 6!M1
EA* & ALL4
  ,:5 ,I 0 WELL CLE>1 9 MID-*ANNEL1 ,I
SANG AG4 ,"S"TS ,I SWAM A FEW /ROKES1 B
9 ! MA9 ,I 3T5T$ MYF ) FLOAT+ & DR1M+
L;G DRUNK5 DR1MS4 ,2F "DLI<T1 ! *ILL (!
WAT] &! PASSAGE (! H\RS _H SOB]$ ME
SU6ICI5TLY 6MAKE ME WOND] :AT POR;N (!
,/RAITS ,I 0 IN1 & AL 6WOND] IF ! TURN
(! TIDE WDN'T CAT* ME & TAKE ME BACK ]E
,I _H DRIFT$ \ 96,SAN ,PABLO ,BAY4
  ,NEXT ,I 4COV]$ T ,I 0 V WE>Y & V
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WANT 6BE DR[N$4 ,I CD MAKE \ ! ,SELBY
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H1DWAY1 & AT ! CO/ ( S* PA9;L EF=T1 T ,I
GAVE X UP & 3T5T$ MYF ) FLOAT+1 N[ & !N
GIV+ A /ROKE 6KEEP MY BAL.E 9 ! TIDE-
RIPS : 7 9CR1S+ _! -MO;N ON ! SURFACE (!
WAT]4 ,& ,I KNEW FE>4 ,I 0 SOB] N[1 & ,I
DIDN'T WANT 6DIE4 ,I 4COV]$ SCORES (
R1SONS = LIV+4 ,&! M R1SONS ,I 4COV]$1 !
M LIA# X SEEM$ T ,I 0 GO+ 6DR[N ANYWAY4
  ,"DLI<T1 AF ,I _H BE5 F\R H\RS 9 !
WAT]1 F.D ME 9 A P>L\S 3DI;N 9 ! TIDE-
RIPS (F ,M>E ,ISL& LI<T1 ": ! SWIFT E2S
F ,VALLEJO ,/RAITS & ,C>QU9EZ ,/RAITS 7
FI<T+ ) EA* O!R1 & ":1 AT T "PICUL>
MO;T1 !Y 7 FI<T+ ! FLOOD TIDE SETT+ UP
AG/ !M F ,SAN ,PABLO ,BAY4 ,A /IFF
BREEZE _H SPRUNG UP1 &! CRISP LL WAVES 7
P]SI/5TLY LAPP+ 96MY M\?1 & ,I 0 2G9N+
6SWALL[ SALT WAT]4 ,) MY SWIMM]'S K1 ,I
KNEW ! 5D 0 NE>4 ,& !N ! BOAT CAME--A
,GREEK FI%]MAN RUNN+ 9 = ,VALLEJO2 & AG
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3/ITU;N & PHYSICAL VIG\R4
  ,&1 9 PASS+1 LET ME NOTE T ? MANIACAL
TRICK ,JOHN ,B>LEYCORN PLAY$ ME IS NO?+
UNCOMMON4 ,AN ABSOLUTE /ATI/IC (! P]
C5TAGE ( SUICIDES DUE 6,JOHN ,B>LEYCORN
WD 2 APPALL+4 ,9 MY CASE1 H1L?Y1 NORMAL1
"Y1 FULL (! JOY ( LIFE1 ! SU7ES;N 6KILL
MYF 0 UNUSUAL2 B X M/ 2 TAK5 96A3.T T X
CAME ON ! HEELS (A L;G C>\SE1 :5 MY
N]VES & BRA9 7 FE>;LLY POISON$1 & T !
DRAMATIC1 ROMANTIC SIDE ( MY IMAG9,N1
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